Just Because

For some reason I have the urge to blog tonight. I guess maybe because there has been so much going on. I started my new job at TTU on April 27th, and since then, we have had 4 deaths in our families and Xan has had 2 ear infections. I started my new job and then Eric's great-grandmother passed away. We dealt with that and the funeral and went on to the next week. Then Xan went to the doctor and we found out she had her 4th ear infection. We were told by her pediatrician that if she has one more ear infection, it is off to the ENT we go. In the next few weeks my great-aunt (Granny's sister) passed away and then my mother's cousin was killed in a car accident. We did not attend those funerals because we had already been off too much. Then last week, Eric's dad passed away so we had another funeral to go to. Since then, I have heard of 3 other people that we are somehow connected to (6 degrees of separation) have passed away. Then to top off my first month at my new job, Xan had to go to the doctor today because she was running a fever and she has her 5th ear infection! Of course, we are not sure if this means we are going to an ENT because her pediatrician is out the rest of this week and the doctor she saw today said that I would have to discuss referrals with her doctor. So now that probably means that we will be having tubes put in. Woohoo.So now I am sitting here wondering if things are going to get worse. I know that things CAN get worse, but I want to know if they are going to get worse.

I do feel really fortunate to have a very understanding supervisor and boss. Starting just a month ago, and having so much crap going on, they have been awesome to work with me and let me take care of things as I need to. I don't know many places that let you take off 4 hours each week your first 4 weeks. Granted, I make up the time; it's not like they let me off with pay. But to be so patient and understanding! That is one way that God has blessed me.

I know I have a lot to be thankful. We are all healthy, with the exception of Xan's ears. Both of my girls are very smart and beautiful. Tori finished Kindergarten today. She received an award for reading 24 books this year. She loves reading and reads everything from books to words on the TV to billboards. If she can see it, she reads it. Xan is so smart too. She can tell you what a cow says and what a puppy says. You ask her to bring you something and she will go pick up that particular thing and bring it to you. Tori and Xan are both happy, love to play and laugh and are full of life. They make me SMILE. They are the best blessings I could ever ask for.

I am thankful that I have a great job that allows me to not only provide for my family but spend time with them too. When I worked for CPS, I made good money, more than I am making now. But I was never home. I worked late, on weekends, on holidays, and at home when I wasn't out working. With this new job, I go to work for 8 hours and come home and don't have to work at home. I know that when we get busy in the Fall, that will change a little, but working late will be the exception and not the rule. I am hoping that life will settle down so that I can really settle into my job without crazy personal stress affecting me.

Well, I think I am off to bed. With all the craziness I don't get much sleep anymore.